I was a little startled from my sleep this morning by my vibrating phone. I knew I turned off my alarm so it couldn’t have been going off anyway. I looked at my phone and it was mom calling. She told me her father, my grandfather passed away. I was shocked, but not too shocked, as he’d been sick and in his 80′s. I
was am more concerned for my mother as this is the first parent she’s lost. So it’s been a very quiet day. My mom is busy getting the arrangements in order, but I needed someone to talk to and Amanda was there for me. We didn’t just talk about how I was feeling but it’d been a while since we caught up in general, so we talked about family, work, school, and mutual friends. She made me laugh a little which was helpful. I would’ve called J but I knew she’d had her own girls night out last night, so I figured she was probably sleeping in this morning. I am really thankful in knowing that I have a few friends that are there when I need them most. B wants me to go to the gym with her today (actually, like now). It’s funny that she’s all of a sudden motivated, especially since my business relates to health and fitness. It’s also funny since I’ve been meaning to cancel my gym membership since I haven’t been getting my money’s worth out of it. For business’s sake, I should probably join her I guess, and she is right in telling me that exercise may help me feel better especially with what’s been going on with me this morning. Honestly, I’d much rather stay in my apartment in bed. Yet I know I can’t do that anyway because I have to get schoolwork done, even more so now that I know I’ll be heading home to NYC earlier than expected. I’ve had quite the day and it’s only 12:30pm.
My head hurts from drinking a little too much wine last night.
My heart hurts for my grandfather and mother.
My mind hurts just thinking about the work that needs to be done.